I wrote this poem and am thinking about giving it to this guy at my school. But... I need male imput. What would you think this poem would mean to you if you were the receipent? And what level of relationship would we have to be in for me to even give you the poem? If any of you guys could help I would *really* appreciate it. (And if any girls want to comment feel free!)

Lyn
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SO COLD

So cold,
and my world is spinning.
A tear just fell,
and somewhere I can hear you screaming.
I laugh, knowing I do not have to care,
and yet
it scares me to think of what may be.
A future uncertain,
A trembling hand,
and thoughts enter my mind from miles away.

I have failed,
but my task was not worthy,
and so I still have hope.
A new goal awaits.

I am past asking if you know.
I do not have to care; I've been set free.
And yet I have some feeling
that when I see you next
I will hate myself
As I once hated you.
It would be easier to hate you now,
but I cannot,
for I know that in my hate I sinned.

But I will mourn the loss of what could have been
and then I will stop
and breathe
and whisper to your psyche
and pray to God that you will hear
while He murmurrs "My Child, Trust In Me."
So I, once again, will stop my futile striving.

I could wish for torment to visit you
as it did visit me.
But I am not vengeful (and God I thank),
and you did nothing wrong.

Or could I blame you for capturing my heart?