I'm gonna go insane one of these days. (Some of you people who talk to me in RinkChat may suspect that day was long, long ago.)

I feel like there's two of me, battling for control over my body in a constant, senseless battle. Man, I've even named the two me's. (Should it be "mes"? But that looks stupid and it makes me think of Jar Jar Binks. Hum.)

See, there's Normal Me. Normal Me is quiet, reserved, sociapathic, socially phobic, and a preferred loner. Normal Me is generally ignored by people who aren't my friends, because Normal Me puts up a shield that keeps everyone out except the few people who can look past that and see that under her shell Normal Me isn't really all that bad.

Then, there's Evil Me. Evil Me is psycho, off-the-wall, chronically hyper, weird, loud, obsessed with death, and prone to fits of general oddness. Evil Me loves to laugh insanely. Evil Me often scares people without meaning to. Evil Me refuses to reveal herself except to a few people, a few close, trusted friends and family. Most people accept Evil Me as weird but nice, but even her friends get freaked out from time to time at the things she says and does.

Evil Me and Normal Me are so different that the battle between them is slowly driving me insane. I think. Hum. Heck, they even have different sets of friends, for the most part. Sometimes they both retreat with a sort of, "I'm tired, you take the body" attitude and then I go hide in my room while still being terribly lonely. Bleah. Sometimes they both fight for control at once and a perfectly normal conversation, influenced gently by Evil Me, will go in an odd direction... It's annoying, really. Well, weird.

Oh well.

Sun"At least I'm never bored for long!"dragyn.