I am very, very frustrated with myself.

Hello, my name is Sosiqui, and I'm a procrastinator. And I can't figure out how to stop.

I used to have good work habits. I used to take pride in my work, and in being a good student. Then somehow that vanished, to be replaced with the Evil Procrastination. Pretty much all last year I was in it's clutches, and my grades reflected that. (Sigh.) But this semester I promised myself I would do better.

And I have been, but only to a point. I procrastinate, still. I rationalize why it's okay for me to ditch this class or skip this assignment. I'll take the most stupid, inane pretexts. And when it comes to doing work, I'll ignore it. And ignore it. And forget about it. And in some cases just not do it. I have the brains to do it, and I have the time to do it. I just *don't do it*.

And all I have to do is sit down and just DO things. Take time away from this or that to actually do my job, which is being a student. And I know this. I know nothing is going to magically go away, and that I'm being an idiot. I'm glad I'm frustrated and feeling guilty, because that's a sign that I still CARE. That I know I'm being stupid. But even with all this I have the hardest time. I'll waste time while cursing myself for doing so.

Sigh. I lost something, and I don't know how to get it back. Any advice would be very much appreciated, because I desperately need to break this habit.

Sosi"heeeeeeelp"qui